..Tigers and Bears...oh my

I love being a mommy so much, even with all of the anxiety, it continues to amaze me how i can fall in love more and more everyday. It would be so easy to lose complete sense of self just caring about someone else so very much; I do not want that to happen. I don’t want to “lose myself” in motherhood. I understand why working moms are always going on about striking “a balance in life” and “making time for you” whatnot. There is just so much to think about daily. This hit me yesterday when I briefly spoke to a friend and hours later in the middle of the night I woke in a fit remembering how I’d forgotten to wish this absolutely amazing person in my life a Happy Birthday. She probably could care less and didn’t give it a second thought as one of her great attributes is compassion, but it’s gnawing away at me. AND she is so great she never even said anything about it! damn, further exemplifying her kindness. It just snuck up on me later in the night after hearing her voice. How could i be so wrapped up in everything else? UGH, I need to be a great mom, a good student and also a better friend. Somehow balance old nina and new mommy nina. I’m thinking getting that sort of balance into my life is going to take a bit of time, tenacity and amazingly patient friends.

blerg.